Good Morning Loves,
So today I’m opening up about a huge insecurity I once had: wearing any sort of swimwear. I always had a Fupa growing up once I reached middle school which made me self-aware that I was different. However, once I reached college and my undiagnosed PCOS had me gain 70+ pounds, my body changed in a way where I didn’t identify with her any longer. I wanted to remain hidden, covered, and not draw any level of attention to myself.
It took years of just therapy, failures, and feeling like a caged bird before I accepted my body in her glory. I remember purchasing my very first swimsuit from Torrid in 2013 (yep only 6 years ago) and taking my first pictures in it and still being afraid to post them afraid of being ridiculed and body shamed. I did it anyway and surprisingly, it felt like a step toward freedom! I decided that very day to take conscious calculated efforts to be more bold and kind to my body, no matter what state she was in. I deserved to celebrate myself even if there were things I wanted or needed to change.
This two piece is courtesy of Rebdolls!
Cysta’s I know it’s hard!!!! That cystic belly fat symbolic of our insulin resistance isn’t the easiest to cope with. Even as you drop weight it seems like she just never leaves but guess what, that’s what makes us beautiful. For my slim Cysta’s who suffer from the opposite and seem like you can’t gain weight or curves, guess what….that’s what makes you uniquely beautiful. Wear exactly what you want as you want it. Often times I’m celebrated for my confidence and boldness but I tell everyone, this was a process. I’m just like you!I don’t wake up everyday never having doubts or insecurities lurk in over my image, my talents, or the quality of human I’m operating in at this present moment….however I choose peace. I choose to be at peace every time, because life is too short to continuously beat yourself up and guilt yourself from enjoying yourself. So if you haven’t taken time to wear a swimsuit afraid of what people may say…..girl put on that swimwear and don’t care.
My favorite this summer has been from Rebdolls, because of their bold colors and flattering Silhouette : One Shoulder Swim Top and the Dip High Thigh Swim Bottom are now on sale while supplies last (literally you can snag this under $50 bucks). This set is body shape friendly, bold, and free. So my beautiful woman with PCOS, let your body shine! Don’t hide your belly! You deserve to enjoy every space created for everyone with peace of mind….so overcome that fear of your body and know that confidence in who you are is the first step in changing everything you can become.
With Love,
LoLo
