Falling Into Focus: It’s Okay To Be Different

Good Day Lovelies,

What a summer I’ve had!!! However, because I’ve been having such a crazy summer and all over the place, I lost sight of what matters most, which is monitoring my health. One of the biggest challenges with being recently diagnosed with  diabetes on top of having PCOS is changing my mindset towards food literally, and understanding that I can’t be like everyone else. As much as people would like to believe they want to be an “individual” all the time, socially when it comes to just operating in a normal settings, you actually don’t want to stand out or feel restricted.  I hate feeling like if I get a mixed drink at the bar, my body may shutdown now (literally happened) because my blood sugar sky rockets, or that I can’t really indulge in my cravings as often as my peers can. Now that Fall is here, it’s time to focus

I admittedly resisted, and because of that, gained 15 lbs of the 35 lbs I lost back.  Clothes that I purchased at my smaller stage, now are fitting in ways I don’t want because sadly I gain my weight in my stomach and face first (wish I was the gain it in the butt and thighs kinda girl LOL). So now, that all of the events and other appearances have slowed down, it is time to refocus and recenter on what I NEED to do over what I WANT to do.  It is time to start embracing change much like the leaves are turning and walk into a greater existence and purpose for my life.  It’s okay to realize that you are DIFFERENT! It’s okay to understand that those differences don’t mean you are less than and are being left out! It’s okay to allow God to separate you to transform you for His use! I’ve always been focused on healthy living and always asked God to use me as an example for that, and now I feel that being diagnosed with two conditions that threaten my quality of life is His way of making me a woman of my word and wishes. I have to start living the example full time, and it will be difficult but of course well worth it I know.  African American women are dying younger and younger these days, and honestly, I don’t want to join that statistic….so for now on…there’s no more reluctance to being different…its time to accept it.

Not only will I accept it, I will continue to embrace my body at every stage of the process, even as it changes or fluctuates!!! I originally bought this set by Christian Omeshun when I was 15lbs lighter, but because of her expert work and focus on quality in fabric, I was still able to look stunning regardless.  My fupa and her growth over the summer still slayed!!!!  I’m wearing her Essentials Set in the Color Cinnamon (purchase it here here) .  What I adore about this set is you can wear it dressed up, down, together, or separate.  I decided to give a pre-fall tease with playing within the shades of caramel/tan, which is one of my favorite go-to shades for the Fall. Its the one color that I feel like makes every complexion look amazing!!! For this look I paired it with my Calvin Klein Tote and Steve Madden Leopard Pumps to finish the look off!!! I think it came out alright, do you agree?  If so, comment below!!!

 

Photography By @gentlemenscurb @curbstylestudio on ig

With Love,

LoLo