Happy Monday Everyone!!!! So let me start by saying that these first two months in 2019 have been turbulent and blessed at the same time. Aside from getting my mojo back professionally (because God switched some things on up), my health goals have been super consistent! Now if you have been following me on social media, then you know that my weight has been a yoyo for pretty much the past three years. I tried every fad diet you could think of but as soon as I would step on the scale and wouldn’t see it move, I would just fall off track.
In January, I was off to a great start!!! I had lost 13 lbs and really felt on the up and up, but then by the end of January I gained 8 back and started feeling discouraged. The feelings of “I’ll never lose weight” started to creep on in. The truth is, when you have PCOS, the battle for health is truly uphill. Add diabetes, and you wake up every day with the anxiety that my body isn’t functioning like it should. I literally worry about my organs deteriorating every single day, and although we are all destined to die, I never wanted to die due to disease. It just wasn’t the way I envisioned going out. So I really made up in my mind that 2019 would be my year to put me first and my health first. So when I stepped on that scale, I was like….does health even matter if I can never achieve it?
I contemplated my options…..but none seem to be desirable. Weightloss Surgery was not an option for me because I still wanted to be a mother. As a woman with PCOS, there is no cure, and in fact, losing weight too rapidly exacerbates infertility more than it helps. So because I truly believe being a mother is in my future, than what do I do now? Well I quickly snapped myself out of it. I had to remind myself that the scale doesn’t always determine the health if you are indeed living healthily. I had gotten to a place of enjoying working out, so I didn’t want any small trigger to knock me out my routine. My clothes were fitting looser slowly, I was sleeping great, and I was feeling amazing….so who cares if the scale doesn’t move right away! I knew I was putting forth the health work to make my life better consistently and it was showing.
I had to retrain my thinking into positive thoughts because I wasn’t doing this to attain a number on a scale, I was doing this to regain my quality of life. Some may argue that excess weight doesn’t make you unhealthy, but I will say that it may not be a risk for some, but for me it is a risk. PCOS and Diabetes have me viewing my life completely different. It has me wanting to honor my body differently and although I don’t wish an illness on anyone, I am thankful to God that I am able to be a vessel to others to be motivated by. So today I say!!!! Ditch the Scale!!! Work hard to be healthy for you!!!! You can only live once so do it right the!
With Love,
LoLo
